One Year Writing my Blog!

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I realized today that I have been writing this blog for a year. I just skimmed my posts over the past year and I can't believe it's been a year. So much has happened but it seems like nothing will ever slow down. There's been so many high's and low's and I'm just looking forward to more high's than low's for the rest of the year. All I want is some peace and happiness. 

 I also wanted to let you know that I started a new business that I can do from home this month and I am hoping it goes well for me because I really want to pay off some debt, put money aside for future medical debt as well as save money for Cruz for when I'm gone. Technically I could work my ass off working extra shifts at the hospital but I would much rather be home with Cruz so being an Independent Consultant with Rodan & Fields seems like a much better fit for me. I'm still gonna work at the hospital as a nurse but living on a single income with an 8 year old just isn't enough these days. I need to think about the future and save money which reminds me of something.

 I had a patient ask me last weekend if I was married. I told her I wasn't and she told me not to worry because God will find someone for me when the time is right. It's kind of funny how older people always seem to ask that question and it's funny to think that not so long ago marriage was the only option for women for financial security. I'd like to think that I'm doing fine on my own but it would still be nice to have a partner to help out not just financially but emotionally through this rough part of my life. The emotional aspect is definitely the hardest to go through alone. I can deal with the financial part for now but I just wish that there was someone here to comfort me when I get home from doctor's appointments, scans and work. I don't think I can emphasize how difficult it is to live with cancer unless you're living it too.

 So, if you feel like checking out my website for my new business here's the address: www.ctamayo.myrandf.biz

 And if you feel like hanging out let me know. :)

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