reflections

I decided to take out my extensions for awhile. My scalp is just too sensitive right now and having the extensions was actually starting to hurt. So, I decided to give my scalp a break and go natural. Although I loved the extensions because it reminded me of how it feels to have long hair, it is also liberating to be able to get ready so quickly in the morning. I just need some time to learn how to style my new short hair. Cruz loves it too. First thing he said when he saw me after I took out the extensions was "I like your hair". I'll take that as a huge compliment because not very many 7 year old boys would even notice it. He said it was longer than he thought it would be. I still think it's growing very slowly though.  Other than my hair, things have been quiet which is nice. I don't need anymore bad news. I have been having a lot of pain recently in all the areas where I had cancer but I'm trying to think positive that everything is still okay. I t

I have been fighting a nasty virus for over a week now and I'm sooo over it. I don't even have the luxury of being able to rest because I still have to go to work and I can't sleep when I'm sick. I think I woke up like 4 times last night and by 7am this morning I decided there was no point in trying to sleep in. Which really sucks because today was the only day that I had the opportunity to sleep in. I wanted to be lazy and sleep in until noon like my weekends in college. At least I have my voice back though. My voice decided to take a vacation this past weekend which made for an interesting weekend at work. I had a few hard of hearing patients and they definitely couldn't hear me at all but we made it through the shifts with no problems. I think it helped that I had a student with me for one of the days so she was able to do some of the talking for me. And she even had cough drops for me. Bonus points! I think I'm getting over the worst of it though. I hope. 

It has been an extremely stressful week. Between getting bad news, getting my infusion and being sick I'm ready for some happy news again. In regards to my own health, I'm finally starting to feel better but I think I actually have to thank my infusion for that. Since it makes me so sleepy it allowed me to get all the rest I needed but wasn't allowing myself to get. I think I slept most of the day yesterday but unfortunately I got Cruz sick too. He's starting to feel better too though so I'm glad. I think I've gotten sick more often these past two years than ever before. I usually have a really good immune system except for the whole cancer thing. But anyway, about that bad news. Here it is: one of my sisters needs a liver transplant.  A lot to take in, right? It's been kind of hard to wrap my mind around the whole thing. I'm really starting to wonder what God has against my family to bring so much heartache. I guess it all started a few weeks before

The only times I've ever received flowers from anybody was on my college and high school graduations from my family. Here's hoping that I have many more years left so that one day I will get flowers once again. Happy Valentine's Day! Enjoy this video. This song has been stuck in my head for days.

I'm sure we've all seen the Facebook movies and at first I wasn't sure if I would do it but after watching a couple of them I decided to see what mine looked like. Even though it is a little cheesy, it pretty much summed up the last two years and reminded me that we can get through anything when we really have to. If you want to see it click here .

Sometimes I miss wearing scarves on my head. It doesn't quite work as well with hair or hair extensions but having no hair makes getting ready in the morning so much faster. It felt kind of nice to just get up in the morning and not have to straighten my hair or make sure my curls didn't get out of control. It easily shaved off 20 minutes off my morning routine. At the same time I am having some serious hair envy. I find that I stare at women's hair a lot. I wish I had long, thick, curly hair that was my very own. I used to have the long curly hair but it wasn't exactly thick. It just had a lot of volume. I kind of didn't expect to ever have long hair again because doctors always made me feel like I would be on some kind of chemo until I die but since I'm doing so well I haven't needed the "strong stuff" for over a year. So now, I feel like I actually have a chance to have long hair again, if even for a short while. The only part that is frustrat